Monday, September 03, 2007

Blacker or Slogger?

Am just not feeling it lately. I think I mighta been thrown off my stride with the false start for school. Or maybe the feeling that everything is "on hold" till I get that final bill of health for the Pearl-girl. Or the fact that I am "trying " for that last baby, and I am late again this month- yet pretty DARN sure that I am not in a "family way." Grrrrrr!

Now I must waste perfectly good money on a pee-stick to tell me something I already know (not pregs), so I can go do something I really don't want to do (Pearl's CT scans). Again... am helpless to not do it. Must.

And I have to do it before tomorrow night (first Weight Watchers meeting).

The good news? My mama rocks!

Seriously, you all had good advise and lovely comments for me, but my mom sent me an e-mail that fixed everything, or rather, brought me peace. The most pertinent section....

"That she will have angels to hold her hand....maybe even my mama who underwent months and months of very bad tests (although she was an adult who could be explained to). I know she would be there anyway. and granny great and all the rest from both sides of the family whom we have not met in mortality. Their hearts are turned toward you. Plus the comforter will be there . for Pearl and you. Be sure to get a blessing from Dadguy for both of you. and in your case, the sooner the better. You might get guidance about whether or not to proceed or forget about it. Our hearts are turned toward you and your precious family.
Love, Mom"

A timely reminder.


Anyway... it may be a Happy Labor Day and all that in the US of the A, but my slacking off has extended to my housekeeping, and I gots to get up and rock the house. Or clean. Or something!


elizasmom said...

1. Boo! Hiss! to your wimmin-parts for acting all preggo when you're not! crossing my fingers for next time around.

2. Yay to your mama for giving you some peace about the scary tests.

3. Good luck at Weightwatchers! I got great results from them, both in terms of weight loss and more importantly, in giving me a kick in the rear about adopting healthier eating habits.

shoeaddict said...

I have been thinking of you and Pearly. I wish you peace and strength. I know that the Lord will give you all you need.

Jessica G. said...

How do moms know when to say exactly what we need to hear? And when will I be able to do that for my kids?

Feeling your pain with the non-preggers. Me, too. Ugh.

Mama D said...

I am here and I am thinking about you in everything.

the Dread Pirate Rackham said...

you is a stronger wumin than me, that's all I'm sayin'.

Moms are good at saying what we need to hear - whether we like it or not. I wish I could be half the mum my mother is to me.

sari said...

I'm glad you've got your momma.

I think I actually have one or two pregnancy tests laying around...I could send them to you! ;-)

Kate said...

What a beautiful message from your mama. What a wise woman she is. I am praying for peace for you and your entire family.

Best wishes at WW! I know lots of people who've found it effective and an all-around positive experience. Sounds like you need some extra encouragement right now.