Well with my Soul

 I did a thing.

Broke a generational contract with a dark spirit. Ended a family darkness. I have been led to this moment by so much love.

Here is how it worked: 

Became aware of this thing.

Named it and it's nature.

Listed the things I needed to do to prepare.

Did the preparation, which, the book I felt impressed to finish as part of the prep out-lined in specific detail how to end these things. It was written by someone who had done it herself. It sounded similar to the IFS and Resourcing work I've been doing with my therapist. It also closely mirrored my plan, but I was super glad to have the confirmation that what I was planning would work!

Began the day of with fasting and prayer... I had started fasting the night before, but I decided to fast with water because I take meds that are a bad idea to get dehydrated, and  felt my meds were important to have because they help me focus.

Underwent a gentle hypnosis yesterday with my therapist to focus my being on moving in love, not being in conflict with anyone or even with the thing that needed to end.

Took a little over an hour in prayer and meditation to fully accomplish. Actually less than that, I guess... but I had so much gratitude and love I needed to express, so yeah!

Rested.

Got a priesthood blessing of healing that evening from my husband when he came home from work.

Rested more.

More gratitude and praise for my release.

The List for Preperation:

Finish Book- Consider Yourself As Eve by Meghan Farner... chapter 5 is the relevent chapter, but I recommend the whole book for understanding the Temple as a woman.

Get a blessing

Learn about Veils

Learn about Sarah/Sariah (my post-menopausal state that is no longer post menopausal)

"Quorum" but female.

Study my Patriarchal Blessing

Repair connections with three specific women... I did the work, not at all clear if it repaired anything. I feel both better and worse with the situation with my sister. 

In the end I got the blessing afterwards for reasons. Mostly because my husband suggested that perhaps, if it was a matter of healing, I should get the blessing after removing the thorn. He unknowingly used the exact words that the Trauma Massage Therapist who I've been working with for several years described what she felt the entity had placed in me at a young age. So yeah... that seemed like the way to go!

Side Note: as I sat to receive the blessing of healing, our dog jumped up from her rug with ears and tail up and approached the edge of our bed. I thought she would start barking, but instead she snorted and greeted whatever, and then went on the other side of the bed to where she usually sleeps and lay down. Later she came and rolled around on the rug in complete joy and making the sounds she makes when she is completely comfortable and happy. Distracting during the blessing but comforting that as far as she was concerned, all is well.